I've had a good week. Ignoring the material issues it has been pretty good. I've got to meet many of my friends, I had substantial conversation with people overseas, and then I got some thinking. And I realised how fucked up is the fact that we become strangers with our exes. Isn't that just really weird? People you used to talk to, people you used to know everything about, people you used to see, share experiences, be together, kiss, make love... and when a relationship ends... poof! It all vanishes, goes away and you just get to see what everybody else sees. A person. A person you don't know anymore anything about. No conversations, no meetings, no being together, no kisses, no nothing. And this is just the way it goes: easy come easy go.


I don't even miss him. I think I just miss IT. The fact of having someone you can actually rely on, the fact of having that special someone to tell them everything about horrendous or fantastic day, the fact of maybe, just maybe, even being a "we". Perhaps I'm getting old (well that is a certain fact), but I'm over those crazy nights with random boys, I want something real. I wanted something real, so it might be why I rushed things and became a girlfriend so abruptly.