They say love can beat anything. They say that the single thing you need in life is love. Well, I'm guessing "they" are wrong, again.

Does love even matter? I mean, what love are we talking about? I thought we were talking about a lover… I may not be perfect, I may have my flaws but I feel like I am the perfect girl in the world when he's around. Nevertheless, I am pretty damn sure he won't stick around much longer.

So now I'm thinking, he was the one who came back to me, he was the one who started all this thing all over again… And now he's the one who wants to give it up but he just doesn't dare to say it to my face.

What should I do? Handle it however I can and wait for the best or should I just leave it in order to stop hurting me and making it easier to him?

Friendship is one of the most important things in a person's life. I understand that. And I curse this fact.

Just a couple of weeks ago I lost what would be the longest relationship I ever had. Despite de fact that I know that it was the right and the best thing to do, a loss is always hard. But now, knowing that I will have to face another loss, I feel beaten already.

I can offer much. I am running out of time. And I'm losing him. I am sure the next time I'll see him would be the last one and I don't know how to say goodbye to all this.

I could write about this the whole night but, surprisingly, unlike always, it is not making me feel any good so I'll just stop and let my tears say good night.